Purest kind of something...

This felt very true to me...somehow...maybe it might felt close to you too...

I am a that,
I am

If you give me a name,
your eyes will see me with that feeling
If you give me an age,
your mind may know me of that much energy

If you give me a personality,
you may think you know me

Allow me to be nameless
And to be everchanging
Allow me to be ageless
and to live in this moment
Allow me to be nondescript and to melt into your needs
If you feel you must name me
Let my name be love
If you feel you must age me
Let my age be forever

And if you feel you must know me,
Than know me as yourself

(poem courtesy from pali-nii)

"something that we called true love...maybe"


s i l l a t u r r a h i m

arahan dari xati....*koff layan tagged demi sillaturahim

1.love to eat instant noodle...seriously..there are days that i crave for instant noodles...

2.the scariest creature in d world = frog

3.never bought any particular phone on my own altho after 2 years of working experience..

4.people said i sleep like a shrimp

5.i hav to hug a bloster when im sleepin (no 4 hapen when the bolster is too short for me)

6.like to do theory rather than application

7.used astral projection study to reason my sleeping habit...

8.wishin i could make my own manga one day but then....(please refer to no. 6)

9.i never thounght anybody could replace raymond in my heart but sheldon did!!....(your references 'everybody love raymond' and 'the big bang theory')

10.when i was 8, i spent my pocket money to buy a colouring book ---reason- theres a picture of a geisha in one of the pages,the only pages that i never colour until i lost the book n realise i never colour it bcos its to precious to me but then i missed the chance of colouring the picture that i adored the most :(... (this is my first debut in getting involved with japanese world)...

11.i walk funny (seriously ask anybody who ever knew or saw me)

12.i can be very handsome man if im a guy..

13.sometimes i always try to produce fire through my palm by concentrating all the heat around me there...all the attemps weren't succesfull..my palm wasnt even heated...but i haven't given up..not yet..

14.im a super lazy bum,but my responsibilty level safe me most of the time...

15.hav only one pet in 24 years of living, a fish...it died..obviously...like 4 years ago after less than 4 weeks with me...(_ _;)

16.when i was 5 or 6 i iron my own hand trying to understands how it work...d scar from this learning curve is stil very visible until now...

17.i promised my self that everyday i will do one thing that i love...for today...i accidently did it (talk excessively about oneself)...the best thing is..i could blame xati for it...hohoho....


For this up coming 'V' day...lemme tell ya bout 'D' somebody... (still very much an imaginary one tho...heheh...but stil...a gal can dream right...)

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return he'll get my support
He will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
He'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
He will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it...

Its amazing how someone could write something that even a perfect stranger like me felt damn close to...we all are akin to each other weather we like it or not...almost everyone keep on searching for 'the one'...being joyful, being intoxicated by love and of course... 'being crash and burn' in the name of love...

"but when it does...its the best damn thing!"


bitter sweet thingy...

there are times in life where we have to make a decision that might hurt us or the people close by...

although this sound normal and relevant, yet sometimes it doesn't make sense to me.Why do i have to purposely choose a solution that would definitely make me or people around me unhappy...

to be able to differentiate between following my heart or following the path, im always scared that i might follow the latter unconsciously.the matter of heart sometimes so hard to define, maybe because the fact is i have to face the real me inside...a reflection that wasn't as pretty as i alway thought.

its bitter sweet thingy...today i choose to taste it bitterness somehow, i remember someone told me "try to taste the bitter thing, tats where u felt the kick...its damn addictive!! seriously....."

"if you don't love...then leave...let it be..."



such a lazy lethargic day.......

theres a lot of hazy things going on and on and through my mind makin me having sleepless nites lately....heres the thing..

i love to sleep....i love to dream...so being sleepless is really something damn annoying...

"pale face, red eye in d office....most definately"


the first entry....

all my others blog (and of course projects) were always always left unfinished..unattended...abandoned...

now only i realize....

i rarely finished whatever i started....

"Leo...the thing that'll definitely change this year is me!"