Light of Prague

Quiet light...

Dwell by the antique road...

Of old shops and scary dolls...

As we walk past the quiet road,

Life of light, unconsciously...
ready to unfold...

1 clip of 2011

I bid 2010 with heavy explosion of firework that started in Prague at 7pm..no kidding the people over there play with fireworks in the middle of the street...but the real fireworks seen from Charles Bridge that was fueled with people and their spirit is simply impressive.

Pieces of the fireworks view were capture in my mind together with the people, singing and welcoming 2011...

Ohh 2010..u are gone...I'm in the other side of the world...a place my mind would never have perceived back then..how small we are in this big universe...

fighter...of the other dimension

10 things about 2010

1. It creeps in like an angel in disguise.making me unaware of the future it gonna unfold
2. Life feel at a stagnant yet super comfy stage...I'm happy...
3. Laissez-faire'..that was me in half part of it...almost drown and lost in between dream and reality..literally..
4. Given a dream of opportunity or sometimes I think the universe is getting tired of the lazy me, so it forces me to stand and straight away go for a fight...
5. It was a crucial battle of decision, getting desperate, but realizing how much I'm blessed with family, friends and people that have faith in me more than I did for myself. Everyday I saw the earth, my pray goes to them deeply...for I know I couldn't ever repay 'kindness and love'.
6. Relive my life in 14 days, from school like motivation camp, to the place where I got my degree, and getting super sick and taking care by mommy like a baby.
7. Leaving....
8. New World..New Order...it did take quite sometimes too adjust after 26 years being inside such a comfort zone and to have that bubble burst...was quite a slap of change.
   
9. Well what's life if we did not have to make it better! But my cooking skill still did not develop any better though...*sigh
10. Excited, scared, exhilarating, experimenting...life to be continue...

as good as its get...

Finished a book, and realize how scary and brutal religious extremist can be. I'm not someone who can be called religious , but I was brought up within an Islamic surrounding. Combine with a mixtures of different people and cultures around me.

the Islam that I know in my country, somewhat more open, more subtle . Ya, there's have some restriction here and there, especially on the boy and girls, the alcohol and I wonder what else is there. Its funny that once you are away from the place that you love, you can only remember the good things that they can offer.

Nevertheless, what struck me the most is the beauty of the community (I'm disregarding the government here because I think they hardly have a good argument upon their decision, the uproar about Kartika, the girls who consume alcohol in public was chaotic and confusing for something that is called law which supposed to upheld justice). Although is not a totally free country like the West, they have boundaries yet it did not consume and take control over the life of everybody.

Somehow this remind me back to my own parent. Growing up I was always being concern by mama, who was keen on our religious belief. While ayah can be quite open and loose about the matter. He often accept our action together with a valid argument. For me, I could never ask for a better combination than this. I'm controlled yet still can be creative about it.

As someone who is born and raise in such community, I realize how different life is for a girl in another country with an extreme community. Where their genitals are being circumcised and sewn shut to keep them pure, predetermined future husband, they are not allowed to drive, even to sent their sick child to the hospital. Some even being killed and burned for the honor of their family.

I'm thankful that up until now, this were stories that I read, not the one that I live.

Nevertheless, that was real, tears and blood drip on the hand of extremist. Personally, I believe at one point people have to compromise, relent and tolerate. Partly it does happen in Malaysia, though that was far from perfect, that is as good as its get, for the time being....

Moon smile...

I asked him..."do you miss me?"
He said " yes...of course i do"
And I ask again..."how much?"
He would always said "as much as u did dear..."

I was silly...
and he was lying...

Then, he finally admit...
He sometimes didn't miss me...
back then...
Those words are just an escape...
The easier way, a safer place...

My reality was different then...
It was filled with flying fairies and perfect pony...

He smiles...
and I chuckled a little bit...

"It's ok not to miss me..."

Now i look at the star...
Then smile at the moon...

weekend project I

Its been so long i haven't really do any kind of craft work (and yes..updating in here as well.. ), this idea has been in the back of my head quite sometime. Now it is about time this idea is manifested. Just a simple weekend project, the ladies might understand why I need this...for all our earrings, bracelet, necklace and wutever accessories we might hoards over the years...

The stuff I manage to find.

I just moved to a new place so it was it take me quite some time to find the right material with a cheap price. This is what I manage to find and we'll see how it turn out to be! The black mat with holes is a cheap placemat -1euro, I found in Euroland and some used boxes are cut out to make the structure. Others are the string -49cent (it's really hard to get things when it is almost 6pm here, so this is the best option i have..).

The black placemat are cut according to the measurement, then I start to tie the string around to attach the structure with the placemat.

So this is how it look like from the front.This might take some time and you can actually be creative with this. Tie it differently or just used a tape for a faster result. I guess with this string, it gave kinda like a traditional, home-made effect, so a black string, colored ribbon, even wires can be used to get a different style.


This is the main part of the 'Capseri' (the name of this modular accessories organizer concept). You can make a different size and shape based on the your room and the amount of accessories that you have. After this is done, my stomach start to work out as well drumming and grumbling...aihhh.... Cooking time *I do miss those ordering time for food.......today's menu is Grilled Salmon..*I always am lazy to cook, so end up with simple stuff most of d time.


After dinner is done, the works continues...I created a some hanging holes for the bracelet holder, as well as the necklace. The parts that holds the bracelet, is also used to put the small earrings. So this is the final result. All this part can be customized accordingly so I really dings this idea. You can used a different color cloth, felt or other means of material to add to your own 'Capseri'. Maybe even hang small dolls, or pictures as decorations.

Simple, easy and really look like a handcrafted material. I guess with a better material, more sophisticated style can be achieved but this is practical enough for now. Fast to make, cheap, recycle material and yeah..serve it main purpose. New un-sharpened pencil are used as the bracelet holder, chopstick, pipe or even those metal tubes can be used, as long as it can be hang in between the holes.

This is the final result..with all my accessories available for now.

It really fun to do this craft things again, I have almost forgotten how good it feels to make something like this. A simple daily things...

Why this is called "Capseri"..it have something to do with a carpet of accessories... :)

Capseri...

The verge...

Those eyes,
almost swelled,
with whatever inside...

Hold it back,
it just ain't the time,
of renounce...

Hard to hide,
what the heart wants,
though the mind try to abide...

The yearns, the want,
halted in between,
the reality that bites...

Hold on...put up a fight,
don't you dare give up,
until the end comes...

"in between dreams of reality"